My porn addiction
I started commenting under a porn addiction post and keeping my streak of being porn free but I want to feel more accountable for my actions so I’m making this to also keep my streak and If forget to post or if I say I failed I want you guys to keep my accountable please I understand that failure comes with this but I’ve failed too many times idk if I’m going to share my full story yet but I’m learning to find myself right now and I hope you guys can too today is my day 4.
Sorry today was day 3
Day 4 I’m feeling better but at times I get really sad i lost the love of my life to this addiction and every night I dream of her and every morning I literally hear her voice but I’m finding god and I’m finding myself and rewiring my brain I’m actually changing into a new person I swear of it
@D26174 good luck on you💪
Thanks man I appreciate it
Day 5 I’m spending a lot of money on some really good therapy to fully understand my brain I’m reading a book on how to rewire myself called rewire and I’m going further into my religion all of these things together I’m hoping to completely become a new person I’m hopeful but still hurt by losing my love
Day 6 I’m almost at a week and I’m feeling confident I got really good therapy and keeping my connection with god is helping me keep hope and love in something while I still try and find it for myself I am prepared to fail though I’ve resisted an urge but I don’t know how many more of those I can resist but when I do fail I’m ready to bounce back
@D26174 You're doing amazing <3, I'm so proud of you! 💗
Day 7 finally a week it feels like longer I’ve resisted a few urges which is good I didn’t expect them to come back so quickly but I resisted things are going good
@D26174 ❤️
@D26174 ❤️❤️
@D26174 You can do this! <3 I'm here for you 💜 Sending you lots of love and *hugs* 🐾💕
Thank you so much
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Hey guys,
From last 2 to 3 months I have been indulge into this once again. My longest streak is 75 days then 45 but now I am facing issues with even achieving a day or two. Feeling ridiculous.
From today, I will surely use this community to track myself. Right now I have taken some steps which I am listing here so I can go through it and solve this issue.
- Destroy the private space :- 99% I relapse in my room, so I am installing a blocker in my room window so I can't close it even if I want to . Let other's think I am mad. My life is more precious than other's judments or harsh words.
- Focus on Night :- From today I will not think anything from 10 pm to until I come out from my room except the creator of the world. I will talk to ALLAH SWT , read Quran and ask his forgiveness. This night time is fixed for him. I will have some issues at starting even I will slip but I will keep going. Might be I will have some other job works or career but my health and breaking this addiction is more important than anything else in my life right now.
- Fantasy :- This is the biggest reason of my relapse, even if the porn is not present I starts fantasizing the thing and then boom. So I will not think anything at night except lord and in day time also I will try my best to figure out how to solve this. WORKING AREA
- Do cbt , put written stragety in front of the desk.
- Write your thoughts whenever you get any , It will help you see the thoughts as option not as order . Then you can debunk it and solve the issue. Also imagine your friend is the one who are getting these thoughts and give him good suggestions. It works I have tested it
- Then the prayer is the shield and writing all day about the emotions and then writing triggers after the relapse and eliminate it.
- At initial level it's hard but once you pass even 7 days it's little easy, after 15 days, wow you feel great. at 30 you won the game macha
Best of Luck
Praying for you. It is difficult to be defeated but you can break free from this bondage. I have confidence in you.
