Porn addiction

Hey im new here but i just wanted some help and to vent out. Im in a relation ship and it been a year sonce ive been with my gfand shes been the best thing in my life helping me a lot through my depression, but recently i told her i have a porn addiction and she felt hurt.

Ive been watching it since i was a kid. Honestly it started cause i like it but then i started watching nearly daily to like relieve stress or whenever i felt in the mood. Ive also went in *** sites to talk to other people since it felt exilerating and good to meet other kinky people, but i never watched it hoping to meet them, i just did it for a good time and I thought it just like watching regular porn.

When i started dating my gf i still watched porn but stopped ***, but after a few months i went in a *** site again and sexted with some strangers. I never did it to replace her and i just felt so much in the mood that i did it without thinkingabout it. I really love her a lot and shes been such a supporting beautiful woman andbi hate that i did it. It made me depressed and anxious. I wanna tell her everything but i dont wanna ruin my relationship, i wanna fix it for her and myself and just hate these urges.

Ive wasted hours on watching erotic content and i hate it, i really wanna help myself and control my depression. Shes been such an amazing woman, ive hinestly never thought ive get into a relationship but the more i knew, the more i wanted to be with her and i hate that i did that. I dont wanna lose her, i honestly dont think i cant handle being alone or hurting her and loosing her trust. I just hate feeling like this. Ive felt too depressed and anxious that i cant barely function. I need help.