إدمان إباحيات وعادة سريه / Porn and masturbation addiction

أول مرة اعترف بإدماني

في رحلتي لعلاج إدماني واي السبب وانه الشعور أصبح مخزي ومحزن قررت اعترف بعجزي تجاه الإدمان

وعايزه اعترف بإدماني هو العادة السرية وأفلام آباحيه وملاحظه أنا كمان بنت فالموضوع مش موجود كتير

ومخزي بشكل غير طبيعي لما بحاول اتعرف على اسباب إدماني وازاي اعلاجها كان من طرق العلاج

إن الانسان لا يتعافى لوحده من الإدمان لازم يبوح مشاعره لشخص شبهه لشخص يفهمه وهكذا

وبما إني شخصيتي ظاهريا عبارة عن بنوته شاطرة بتحاول تكون أحسن مرحة وبتضحك دايما

وبتحاول تقرب من ربنا استحالة اقدر أبوح لحد من اهلي او صحابي بموضوع زي ده مش عايزه نظرتهم عني تتغير

ولذلك بقا قررت احاول اتعافى واشوف نفسي واتخلص من العبء العليا الموضوع زايد معايا بسبب التوتر والاستريس كمان

وبس كدا حبيت أشارك علشان الاقي اليفهمني

For the first time, I am admitting my addiction. In my journey to treat my addiction, understand its causes, and deal with how shameful and sad it makes me feel, I decided to admit my powerlessness over it. I want to confess that my addiction is to masturbation and porn. I also want to note that I am a girl, so this issue isn't talked about much and feels unnaturally shameful.

When trying to figure out the reasons for my addiction and how to treat it, I learned that one of the steps to recovery is knowing that a person cannot recover from addiction alone. You have to open up about your feelings to someone like you, someone who understands, and so on.

Since outwardly my personality is just a good, smart girl trying to be better, who is cheerful, always laughing, and trying to get closer to God, it's impossible for me to confide in anyone from my family or friends about a topic like this. I don't want the way they look at me to change.

Because of that, I decided to try to recover, focus on myself, and rid myself of this burden. The problem has also gotten worse for me lately because of tension and stress.

And that's all. I just wanted to share so I could find someone who understands me."