Screwed up today
Bought a bag of coke today and now I'm sitting here wanting to just give up. I don't know what to do. I have no friends, I take care of my mom who has dementia, my 3 brothers are all nasty to me because I didnt succeed like them, I want to go to rehab but nobody can care for my mom and if they could they would want to know why, if I said I'm using again (we've been down this road) I'd be thrown out of the family for good. I'm depressed and cry constantly, I'm super skinny, I have no goals or dreams. Like how does someone get out of this and become someone successful or even worth anything at 43 years of age. I just don't know anymore. I hate this
@SheIsNotOk I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time. It's very brave of you to reach out and express what you're feeling. It sounds like you're carrying a heavy load, taking care of your mom while dealing with family dynamics and personal struggles.
Taking care of yourself is just as important as taking care of your mom. It's okay to ask for help and prioritize your own well-being. You deserve support and understanding, not judgment. If you feel comfortable, reaching out to a therapist or a support group could provide you with the guidance and encouragement you need to navigate through this challenging time.
You have inherent worth and potential, regardless of your age or past experiences. Feel free to reach out anytime you need someone to talk to, I'm here to offer support and encouragement every step of the way 💙