Weed addiction

Weed was not something I liked at first but when I tried it, it created a “waking” that all my problems don’t matter and I am just a soul in a physical body. When I want to drift away from my problems I smoke and although this “habit” I guess isnt cheap it’s been the only thing that doesn’t give me a panic attack everytime I think about my problems. I have financial problems, relationships problems, family problems, and trying to find who I am problems that flash before my eyes when I wake up in the morning. I want to be somewhere else that’s what weed did for me at first but now it’s make me realize I just want to live in comfort and peace. I don’t want to be reminded that I have to be a strong role model and ever mess up as a sister, be a excellent and over achieving student, I don’t have to be a rich and successful first generation Latina daughter I just have to be me and live a life I wouldn’t regret. But everyday I am reminded I have to be better than myself. I try to find the answers in the smoke but it’s so pretty I get distracted then I only think about the good things in my life then I can’t think of anything else and ignore all my problems or anxiety’s. I want help but I am unsure where to start. I am not hopeless but can’t find a answer.