Accepting that I have a problem.

I've a habit of masturbating 1-2 times a day. Some weeks it's every other day. It has had an impact on my love life with my partner though that usually just led to infrequent intercourse. Which was fine for a while because I could be intimate in other ways. Sometimes a cuddle was all that I needed.

Over the last couple months we lost our sweet cat to an unfortunate disease. The grief has made us both very uninterested in sex. My partner was very clear about it and I have to respect her decision. Recently she mentioned that she's more interested in women on account of being bisexual. Saying she loves me and finds women more attractive at the moment. No argument there though my mind has been questioning if she still finds me attractive. She does and I find myself with urges to sleep with other women or finding someone who would enjoy our company. I don't want to cheat on her and she feels the same way.