Loneliness is tempting

It's been a really, truly lonely couple of weeks and right now my brain wants to distract from and avoid that loneliness by watching porn and flipping that dopamine switch. But it's still avoidance, a smoke screen for the real problem - the loneliness. There's a certain person I'm lonely for and the discomfort of waiting on that relationship to unpause and get back on track is so great right now it's driving me to distraction. But my better self doesn't want to distract; my better self wants to acknowledge my feelings, whatever they are, and let myself feel them. But this feeling really is awful and makes me want to watch stuff and do stuff that I know won't fix anything. That's all.