Masturbation leading to Life Problems
At first I thought it was silly. How can you be addicted to porn, but I am. Since I was young I’ve been watching it and used to go on long streaks of masturbating everyday. Unfortunately I don’t know when this streak started. It’s gotten worse since I’ve moved out. Trying to become an engineering major has been hard and doing school socially distanced hasn’t been the best for meeting new friends. I’ve been stressed and the remedy has been porn. But unfortunately I don’t feel happy unless I’m watching porn. And I go into major depressive swings after I’ve masturbated. I don’t have as much time to workout because of exams and I feel like this restless energy is only compounding the problem. Lastly, I’ve been having thoughts of cheating on my girlfriend to fulfill sexual fetishes, fetishes I feel like I’ve gotten from porn. I’m not suicidal, I’m fairly productive, I just feel weak. I can’t break this stupid cycle.
@Crimson1400 Hi Crimson, welcome to the community. We are happy to have you here with us, and I am glad you are reaching out for the support you deserve. Addiction is indeed a harsh cycle. Depresion and addiction can hand in hand for many; addiction is a common coping mehanism when it comes to mental health. By having this awareness, you are already on your way to recovery! If you ever need to talk to someone, the listeners are always here for you.
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If you have any concerns or questions, let us know. Best wishes, and have a good weekend. You are stronger than you realize. We are here for you! :)
