Masturbation ruins life
12 yr old me fell into the loop of watching nude images of female actresses and videos online.. if I calculate the number of times its approximately 10000 times I've masturbated and watched porn. Instead of having friends I only know pornstar names that's how I fucked up myself. I'm 30 yrs old now and maximum gap I've had is 2-3 days without porn and masturbation. I have 0 money in bank account, have changed 8 jobs in 8 yrs. I'm loosing flesh on my body, I've become unrecognizable physically, people who know me have called me looser, pathetic, retard, lazy. My parents are disgusted and they don't even know about my porn addiction, I'm also addicted to smoking, weed, lying, internet... I've used this app before 3 yrs ago, didn't had the courage back then to post a thread but I'm tired of myself, I can't tell any of my close friends how I feel about myself because there aren't any. I can't tell my parents because they are tired and worried all the time.. No past girlfriends because no one was attracted to me.. My parents are worried as they want me to get married, I'm in asian country and live in joint family, it's the culture here and even I don't want to leave them.... I've been trying to catch up on father's business for almost 2 yrs but haven't really done anything, my father is tired and worried all day because I'm unable to stand on my feet...
Hello there friend. I am sorry to hear that you have been in such darkness for so long. I pray that you find peace and freedom. I too was addicted to porn for some time, and I was fighting with my own will. Eventually, I realized that only God could set me free. I started praying, reading scripture, and growing in faith. I have been taking an online course called Setting Captives Free which has a purity bootcamp. It helps to set people free from their addictions by focusing on three main principles: warring against the flesh, walking by the spirit, and washing at the cross daily. It has been known to help set people free from their addictions and impurities, and it is currently helping me to find freedom. I will put the link below. Friend, I hope that you know that no matter what people say or think of you, what you think of yourself, wether it is a pathetic loser or something else, God loves you fully, deeply, and he wants to walk through life with you, through the good times and the bad. It is impossible for us to comprehend the love that God has for you and I. Anything is possible through Jesus Christ who gives us strength! Thank you for being so courageous as to share you story! Never forget that God loves you! I hope that this will help: https://settingcaptivesfree.com/course/pure30
Oh wow. Sorry to hear about that. Your story is really wow. Masterbation does truly ruin life. We are alll battling this😞
I don't have an idea if there is an absolute way, mostly there is not, but i may help with some advices : 1. Try to be in people as much as you could. 2. Have a hobbie ,do something you like ,practice sport everyday. 3. Try to grieve your failure the right way :music , painting etc ... 4. Know you are not alone ,there are a lot of people like you, know also that all people have problems and and they stagle like you do to find a solution, a lot have been cured ,you have to try forever. 5. Try helping people, it may help you forget about your problems and to remember you are not the only one struggling ,people everywhere in streets ,your family ,try to help by the simplest act ,the best is to help stangers it help forget about your problems as well as making new friendships. 6. Meditation may work ,i've hear a lot talking about it being effective curing masturbation addiction as well as maladaptive daydreaming. 7.Try to break boredome ,there is a lot of activities that can help . 8. Try to sleep without draps. 9. Keep trying, keep thinking . Don't just read start doing ,and never forget to talk and cry to god to help you.
Another thing may work as a temporary solution ,try to hear comedy series ,by your own native language ,you can convert it to mp3 ,it can help you to break boredome as well ,it helps with daydreaming it worked for me ,it have even helped me with my studies ,it lower level of anxiety ,this is not the best solution ,the best solution is to change your life style :do not focus on yourself a lot it will definitely help, you can volonteer in a lot of organizations and offer your help and forget about your problems and maybe also have support.
You can can put a part of bottle around your penis, using super glue and wear large clothes so it won't appear. Not kidding by the way i thought about it, i think it may be the solution for an extreme addiction, caused by mental illness.
