The darkest timeline.

I believe my addiction to PMO stems from my early exposure to sexual stuff. I was initially sexually harassed at a young age (10 years) by a person who was a year or two older than me. At first it felt wrong but gradually, a few weeks in to it, it felt normal. Went on for a couple of months until I finally said no.

I had repressed this for a very long time. I remember, though, that I had a very vivid imagination about women and I would often imagine about them but I had no knowledge of what to do with these women in my imagination.

Six years later, porn started, I discovered masturbating on my own. Living a lonely life, I dwelled in to it and it has been 9 years now. My physical health and sexual health is suffering. I have tried several times to quit but I fail. The most I have gone at is 42 days.

I replased today, after 16 days of quitting. A few days of pmo then a few days of quitting. This has been the norm for the last 2 years. I have had enough of this. I want to turn this around and seek to enjoy a normal life now.

Sorry for the long post.