what is wrong with me

I'm never *** but I constantly touch myself, I can't get wet but I still shove it in anyways. I constantly to sexual things for others because that's really the only way i've been able to make friends at all but they've been ignoring me i can't stop crying. I started mutilating my genitals. i've lost all motivation to talk to family, leave my room, and do basic human needs. Every time I try to force myself to touch myself I get distracted so easily and it takes forever to finish. I've even gone 4 months without touching myself when I was younger and I never got *** once. I'll always make sexual comments around people without noticing to the point it makes people uncomfortable though. I dont even like doing it I can't remember the last time I was actually wet. I just want people to care about me.