magical possibilities ~ AuDHD

I'm Michelle and I'm new this is my second post and my first one really su*k'd because I wasn't able to get my entire poem to paste so, I'm gonna try here for another poem I wrote after my autism/ADHD dual diagnosis. I am embracing me 😊 hope you guys like the poem!

Two Faces — One Heart

I’m a wildfire spark  

— and a quiet slow stream —  

two sides of a soul  

stitched into one dream.  

I’m the rush of a moment  

— that won’t let me be —  

and the still, sacred silence  

that’s always been me.  

I’m the scatter of thoughts  

— racing through my mind —  

and the comfort of patterns  

keeping me aligned.  

I’m the leap without looking,  

— heart on my sleeve —  

and the girl who needs order  

just to breathe.  

I’m the loud, laughing lightning  

— dancing too fast —  

and the soft‑spoken watcher  

learning from the past.  

I’m the one who forgets  

— what comes next —  

and the one who remembers  

every feeling in text.  

I’m the rhythm of chaos,  

— the hum of routine —  

the woman who feels  

every crevice in between.  

I’m the mask I perfected  

— so no one could see —  

and the truth that keeps whispering,  

Just be "MeL … be me." 

I’m the child who felt different  

— with no words to explain —  

why the world felt too loud,  

too sharp,  

too plain.  

I’m the grown woman now,  

— learning to say —  

these two sides of me  

were meant to stay.  

For I’m ADHD’s fire  

— and autism’s grace —  

a storm and a sunrise  

sharing one space.  

Not broken.  

Not wrong.  

Just beautifully free —  

two faces, one heart…  

and that heart is me.  

Author's notes

AuDHD IS ADHD AND AUTISM AS DUAL DIAGNOSES

"When my ADHD takes the lead, it feels like I'm gripping the reins of a wild chariot trying to steady horses that want to bolt in every direction at once.

My mind becomes an open browser with tabs multiplying faster than I can count,

and my mouth sometimes fires off whatever thought shows up first,

long before I've had a chance to filter it.

When my autism steps forward, everything tightens and sharpens.

I become focused, intense, detail‑locked,

socially unsure, and buzzing with quiet anxiety.

It's the part of me that hits the brakes,

while my ADHD is the part that slams the gas.

Together, they make me the driver I am

not perfect, not predictable,

but balanced in 

a way only I can be."