need support

hello fellow adhers,

just writing a message there asking for a little support.

my brother and father are adhd, i present all the dsm5 criterias, and i got to a psychiatrist. and he was agreeing with me that i am indeed highly suspected of adhd. only the whole diagnosis process would cost more than 3'000 $ or so. so i gave up on formal assessement.

i am trying to lean about stategies to cope with it, nootropics on top of coffee ect. its summer time, i had a bunch of projects but everthing feels... so weird.

i basically cut out the few ppl that were there for me, one of the reason being they were not very supportive of this adhd side of me. i masked so well that everyone's doubting me now.

so i found myself very isolated now. lonely, misunderstood and very sad and angry.

and kinda ***.

anyone wanna listen or become my friend? my parents, friends and society in general kinda gave up on me, i would really like to encounter some supportive person for once. (would prefer a female like myself)

thanks for having read, hope to get some support </3