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@Sheena39 💙

💚 woke up this morning feeling really deflated, a bit depressed and feeling down, I've had no energy the last few days, I feel exhausted all the time and my sleep is all over the place, I've been sick a lot lately but my doctor says I'm fit to return to work, Ive been trying to find a job but getting nowhere and I feel like all I do everyday is wake up cook Clean and do nothing else, it feels like I have no purpose 😞😔 I just want to feel happy

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@Sheena39 I don't really talk about feelings; I'm INTJ and ENTP. So I sense things, intuit things, perceive things.

The world of feelings is not mine nor many others, yet these days for myself and many others our particular way of observing the world is devalued by a constant state of feeling worship and management.

How many times am I asked how I feel or am doing? Why am I never asked what I sense of perceive or intuit with my answer really valued?

When will I be treated like the traumatized child I am instead of an adult who should have their whole lives together?

What makes people stuck in some status quo of not realizing trauma keeps one around the age of a toddler? It's ageism, stigmatizing and dehumanizing. 

Anyway. I could say "I feel very bad" or am a purple heart or something but will that really change anything? No. It will just create a cycle where all onus for change is on a traumatized child because they're clothed in adult bodied. How insane is that

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@Sheena39

blue and I’m kinda ashamed to say it, I’m not sure how to elaborate. I’m just feeling like a sh!tty person today :)

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