Alone

I feel like I don’t really have anyone and it’s impossible for me to find friends that i care about and where the other cares about me too. All my friendships are surface level and I wish I could meet someone to talk to and spend time with everyday. I have a boyfriend but he’s the only one i truly have, and it sucks because he has so many people in his life and then there’s me who only wants to see him and talk to him all the time but i don’t want it to be that way. I just want friends and people to have fun with. I don’t think i’ve ever been close to someone before besides my boyfriend and I wish I had more people to rely on than him. I’m just not sure how to find those friends. Or if it’s even possible. I don’t know what to do to find someone and I don’t think there’s anyone in my life at the moment who I can or want to become close friends with.