Anxiety

Hi, I hadn't come here before because I felt it was a bit silly from my part, but I'm feeling anxious again, to the point where my stomach hurts and I have no appetite. Let me tell you, a while ago, thanks to a friend, I got into the world of *** roleplaying. Over time, I entered into a relationship as a character with a guy, but our relationship escalated to the point where we were talking as users. The problem? one day there was a misunderstanding where his role-playing family treated me horribly and said a bunch of nasty things to me, I told him the truth but he didn't seem to believe me and asked me to pretend to have broken up so that later i would come back as another character pretending to be another user so his family wouldn't suspect and I accepted, but the days that I had to be away I felt horrible and very anxious reading the things they said about me, and even more when I saw that he was playing along with them to "disguise" ... the point is that one day he told me that we should really break up because they were pressuring him to go out with someone else as soon as possible and I wasn't ready to return to that social circle yet, I cried a lot that night but later i made a new account as we agreed. We ended up getting back together, but I wasn't having a good time, even so I tried to take it the best way possible and for a while I "enjoyed" being back with him, the thing is that the feelings as a user on both sides became stronger, but I was afraid of "mixing" role with user in terms of an official relationship, one day there was a disagreement with the group again, he seemed to be in favor of his family and friends again, I started going to a psychological assistant, I always remember him telling me "you're taking everything too personally", but how could I not take it personally if they were putting my user in a role problem??? the thing is that one day he told me he was going to leave and we had to break up because of it, that caused me a lot of anxiety, depression, I couldn't eat and food even disgusted me... But I met a guy who during that time made me laugh when I told him I felt bad, he made me forget what was happening to me... two weeks later my ex from role came back, he told me it was to say goodbye to role and me for good, I told him that during the time he was gone his friends said horrible things about me and he agreed that I didn't deserve that... but then he came back a week later, didn't speak to me and started talking to them again... that devastated me because if he had already given me the impression that he was better since he left role, I felt like the only problem there was me... my brother in role got angry and posted about it, I made a neutral post that day for someone else, but I think he thought I was doing it for him too, so his friends and him started making fun of my brother and me saying things like "and since when do I have to ask your permission to come back?" I decided not to give it importance no matter how bad it made me feel, a week later the friend I had made confessed to having feelings for me and we decided to start a role-playing relationship... The thing is, my ex started posting things like "I've never missed anything, because I've never lost anything good", "I'm sorry for idealizing you so much, I should have known from the beginning that you were worth pure d*ck" and once I shared a post saying "I hope I never feel like I'm forcing someone to choose me again" and that same day he posted "let go, get over it, move forward, flow, let it go", but on top of all this he started flirting (when I started my relationship) with a girl who he knew I didn't like because she was the one who made up things about me when the first misunderstanding happened... things between them didn't work out and now I realized that he's trying to flirt with the only mutual friend I have with him and that made me anxious again, why? I don't know and I feel bad for feeling this way because I love my current role-playing partner who I've been with for almost three months now... And i hate that I even couldn't sleep well for this, I'm tired of feeling anxious for him and his friends who also keep saying bad things about me