Bracing Is The Worst Pattern

I dont need to go too much into it, but I've been in a state of hypervigiliance, bracing myself for something bad to happen, from childhood, because, even as I downplayed it, said it was fine, my therapist pointed out just how chaotic, unsafe, and not fine my childhood actually was.

Then the trauma came at 25, further intensifying what what was already there, and at 44, I still find myself bracing my body, bracing everything for the impact of something, anything not good for me.