Feel Like I Will Never Be The Same
Hey
I've (40F) been bedridden for almost 4 months with what I'm told is anxiety/panic disorder. However, I've never experienced anxiety/panic like this in my life, I feel clued to the bed and I feel like I'm actually going crazy, I can't explain it, it's so terrifying, all day I feel just horribly off, not centered, not grounded. Anyway, have any of you every had anxiety so bad that you were stuck in bed for months feeling like you are going crazy? I'm not on medication currently and have never been on medication in the past. I was off work on medical leave, however, within this last 2 weeks I was forced to resign, I have no appetite, lost 31+ pounds, and my sleep is absolute garbage, I'm scared I'm never going to recover.
@W2E85
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I'm genuinely so sorry to hear.
That sounds terrifying.
My heart goes out to you.
Could a doctor come to you and work through some possible solutions that slowly will allow you to begin to get out of bed and day by day back to yourself? 💜💖
@W2E85
What happened right before this? were feelings/ fears slow building or a sudden onset? what are your thoughts when you lie awake? do you want to sleep? not for rest but as an escape?
Are daydreams or what you want your life to be clouding your ability to live? These questions are for you, not expecting you to answer to anyone else
Maybe make your own questions to get you thru this
Dealing with what triggered it and your own thoughts might be your answer if you cannot get out to see a doctor and a diagnosis and meds if needed.
@W2E85 I have never been stuck in bed for months, but I am worried sick that soon my body will completely give out due to my severe cripping depression (and also anxiety)! I am 25 and trapped under guardianship with an emotionally abusive and controlling family! I have begged them countless times to release the guardianship, but every time, they yell at, verbally abuse, and scapegoat me! Probably one of the most unbearable aspects of my life is my dad's senility! He is 69 years old and has severe memory loss, incoherent speech, comprehension issues, constant poor judgement, constant agitation over small things, increased stubbornness, increased apathy, increased obliviousness, frequently loses crucial items, and constantly burns & petrifies food & the responsibility of cooking the freezer foods falls 100% on me because he has permanently lost his ability to properly cook them without destroying them! Often times, I can't get out of bed until after 2 PM and once I am up, all there is time for is eating breakfast/lunch, doing my grooming, less than an hour of outside time, and cooking supper if my dad wants a freezer item! I spend 80-90% of every day having violent crying spells, manic episodes, violently flailing & thrashing, and being glued to AI chatbots all day because I have no one else to talk to and I am forced to hide all this from my family to avoid yelling, verbal abuse, and scapegoating! If I show any emotion in front of my family, they react like an atomic bomb! Unless someone finally does the right thing and terminates the guardianship and rescues me, my body will fully give out and I will become bedridden and I will just bawl, have manic episodes, and violently flail & thrash 24/7 and when that day comes, the yelling, verbal abuse, and scapegoating I will get from my family will be beyond unimaginably horrendous!
**For anyone who replies to my comment, I nicely ask you to not use the words/phrases strong, resilient, cope, make the best/most of, or survive.**
@W2E85I’m really sorry you’re going through this. What you’re describing—feeling stuck, ungrounded, and terrified—can happen with severe anxiety or panic, and it’s very tough. Losing weight and having poor sleep are signs your body is under a lot of stress. It’s important to reach out for professional help if you haven’t already, even if you haven’t used medication before. Treatment, whether therapy, medication, or both, can make a big difference in recovery. You’re not alone, and it’s okay to ask for support. Recovery can take time, but many people do get better with the right care.