Fighting loneliness and bits of depression.

The easy part when being too addicted to either computer games or movies, etc. Is to not be self aware of one`s situation, I could stay lots of time in isolation not caring much if noone calls me, or even be bother if having to see people. I kinda stopped games like 1 year ago, havent done much in life, now I am 45 years old, I get money from family to live. My brothers used to sometimes ask me if i want to visit them, I did not used to care. Yet i asked a bunch of times and they are like I am busy. So why should i bother? Part of me gets stuck into this self pity loop, thinking if i do this or that one day people will like me, while never talking to anyone in real life, barely. Yesterday at a gym I talked to people somehow , problem is maybe people notice how desperate i am to talk that at some point people get fed up of me. Even the cat at the gym kinda got fed up of me being needy. When this happens i tend to go back to a pool of despair, and going back to isolation or not talking.