Focused on time
Hello
I've been having a lot of trouble (for a long time honestly) with not thinking about time. I feel anxious while I think about it and try to maximize the time I do have. And yet, I find myself laying around, sleeping in, distracting myself with social media where I could be maximizing my time. My husband tells me try not to worry because the only time we really have is now. Pretty much be present. Which I try to do. But this has been a problem of mine for a long time. Now that I'm older, with 2 kids, I find myself focusing even more on time.
I remember being younger and my father being sort of the same way. Even now, he likes to talk about the past or what could be in the future. A lot of our talks are time related. It's gotten to the point where I've retreated and don't talk with him as often as I'd like. It's the same with my mother. So in a way, I'm cutting myself off from them ans that makes me sad. Sidenote: there's other issues there besides just what I mentioned above.
Anyway, I don't think I'm looking for advice. I just wanted to vent and see if anyone else can relate. I hope I can somehow learn to be better with this issue.
Thank you for reading.
@Alyssav89
We can't give advice on here per guideline.
I understand your focus on time. I am like that too now since my b-day. I can understand why time is important to me, why is time important to you?
It is impossible to remove time from our daily life, as we are fixated on time from scheduling, planning, to even calculating the time needed for our daily activities. Sometimes I feel like I have 10 pages of to-do tasks, but not enough hours in a day. This is even more often when I was working a full time job and a part time job. It got so overwhelming, I just opt to not do anything "productive." Nowadays, I either avoid things or I procrastinate. I feel what you do, sounds a little like avoiding things by distracting yourself with "unproductive" tasks. We live in a rush and hustle culture, that most people feel the need to always be "productive" - at least in my world. It's okay to settle down and scroll through social media or lay around. The key is moderation. Doing excessively isn't healthy.