Help?
I made this post in another forum but I feel like my problem doesn't have a specific forum here.
Hi, I'm not really good at communicating and stuff but I really need help.
I have characteristics from severe ADHD and severe OCD but it's neither of them with overthinking, self blame and i used to have suicidal thoughts till about last year,
I don't know why but I don't like people. Not everyone but most people, I have no friends I can share this stuff with and nobody to help me deal with this.
I don't have any socials, I don't talk to people.
Crowded places overwhelm me way too much
I can't do anything without music, it's the only safe space I know.
It's really starting to bother me now that I'm about to graduate high school in a few months and i need to learn to communicate for college applications.
I don't really care about having friends or anything because it's always been just me, but I need to learn to stop this constant comparison to others and self blame.
So yea, it's partially my fault too. I waited till it was this bad to seek help.
I can't tell my parents or any grown trusted adult or anybody bc I'm from a country that doesn't actually care about kid's mental health, only their marks. So if I tell them they're just gonna tell me to get over it.
Thank you for reading all this.
@Ksitigarbha
I'm really sorry that you are struggling.
It can be so overwhelming.
I'm glad you could be brave and come here and share and be vulnerable.
That's a strength.
💖
thank you
@Ksitigarbha
A pleasure 💚
@Ksitigarbha
Thank you for sharing your struggles with us, it's very difficult to go through life's problems and changing chapters and when you have no one to help you deal with your struggles it gets more tough. You not wanting to deal with anyone or bother about making friends is really understandable, being alone for like always is tough but you have found a safe place too, and that is music 🎶 💙 Music really helps us with coping and going through difficult situations sometimes or more than often, and it's also a calming and comfortable space for mental health.
But it's also true that staying up closed to other people and not having anyone to talk to or even have some close conversations is very difficult and it is so much more harder when you can't tell others about what you are going through due the fear of then dismissing you and telling you to "get over it ".
You matter so do your feelings and struggles, they mean so much more than only your marks. Your marks don't define you, nor your life, you experiences and thoughts do.
I hope things go well for you going forward and you are really brave and amazing, just wanted to tell you that incase you forgot 💙
Thank you