How do I keep trying?
I'm tired.
For the past few years, it feels like life has only been about healing, learning, growing, and waiting. I kept telling myself, "Just a little longer, things will get better." I held onto that hope because I genuinely believed my time would come.
But lately... that hope is starting to feel heavy.
Every day I try to stay positive. I pick myself up, tell myself not to give up, and keep moving. But some days, it feels like I'm carrying the weight of everything alone.
Nothing feels good. Just uncertainty after uncertainty.
I'm still trying. I'm still hoping. I haven't given up.
I just wish life would meet me halfway for once.
I don't need everything to be perfect. I just want a phase of life where I can breathe without constantly fighting, healing, or waiting for things to get better.
Maybe tomorrow will be kinder. Until then... I'm just trying to hold on to the little hope I have left.
@versatilePear5431
It's good that your continuing to fight these battles that seem impossible..May grace find you some day soon. Things have to get better i pray.🌲
I know exactly how you feel. I feel like i am in a sinking boat. I fix one hole, 3 other holes appear…. I went from burnout, to depression, to abusive relationship, to divorce, to single patenting, to sick kids….I was so tired mentally that my brain shut down. I lost consciousness while crying, and I woke up in the ambulance … acute stress reaction they called it… What helps me is not hoping things will get better, but accepting this is my life now. It’s messy, is complicated but is mine, so I’ll live it one day at a time the best I can.
I'm so sorry to hear that. Sending you lots of strength and prayers. I hope life gets kinder to you soon. Please take care.