Idk anymore

Hello peanut,

Sounds like some negative thoughts running through your mind. Whatever life is handing you right now, theres opportunity for growth through this pain. When life becomes hard its usually because its teaching you lessons. I think about my daughter, shes 8 months old. JUST got over a sleep regression and boy it was rough! But even though she was having a hard time, she has learned new things she can do. I dont know why or how it works that way but it does. Its the same for adults too. Transform your pain into something beautiful. You can embrace the hard times. I promise you, it does get better. You wont feel this way forever even though it may feel like it will. Keep hanging in there. Your guard is up because you dont want to be hurt. Please dont be afraid to be hurt, it will suck but like i said pain is an opportunity for growth and your strong enough to handle anything life throws your way. Always be true to who you are even if you look crazy or sound stupid or even if you get hurt. Eventually, you'll find security within yourself. School, school is rough ill give you that one. Ive dropped out of school when i was 16, got my GED when i was 19 and ive been trying to finish college for 9 years. Im 28 almost 29. I barely have my prereqs done. But even if it takes me another 9 years, i will finish. I refuse to give up lol school is not going anywhere for you or for me. You will be okay, keep working hard it WILL pay off. Lastly people, people can be cruel yes, but they can also be incredible. Surround yourself with people who make you feel good and try not to worry so much about the cruel ones. Im sure they have things they need to work on themselves and it comes out rudely to people. But thats not your fault and try not to take them personally. You absoutely matter 1000%, this is YOUR life. You were put on this earth because you matter. I believe in you. Stay strong and live your best life!