I dont know what to do

Hey guys I'm new here and I just wanted to vent ***? My family argue a lot currently and it often just puts me under fear and often I just start crying. My inner voice in these moments often makes me feel like im the reason for why a lot of these things happen. Im not sure why I think this way but it hurts myself that's what I know and that's why I am writing this. Maybe someone here also experienced this or would just wanna talk i just want to find a way to understand myself and try to change the situation because its really making me feel anxious and depressed even. Thanks to anyone willing to speak with me