I need help
Okay, so it's like this. No matter how playful I may seem through these hard times, I wave. My brain is running like this, like a horror show where you see a guy who's hanging by meat hooks he's in a lot of pain more than he could ever imagine. Scared to death. He keeps trying to pull on the chains to get himself off the meat hooks, but when he does, his hands slip so he falls an. the hooks rip into him deeper. So he ends up with more pain and even more scared. So his brain is saying I'm trying to live, but this is impossible. I'm stuck and there's too much pain. So please hurry up and let me die because I know even if I do survive this, it's going to be a tragedy fried into my brain and have me suffering the rest of my life physically and mentally, and that I don't want to live through.
@BigJay78
Anxiety is a rotten
thief that tries to steal our happiness away, and anxiety can only
occur when you're not focused on something that advances your life from
the smallest thing like making your bed and then look at the progress
and it feels good. (I had to learn the hard way
and I suffered SEVERELY! My anxiety got so terrible that I had to be
admitted to the hospital. I found that
keeping busy doing anything at all helps. ANYTHING CONSTRUCTIVE
When I feel the
anxiety starting, I consider it a challenge and a fight that I must win,
(This takes a real creative effort) I try to quickly focus on
anything (one of my hobbies like drawing, logging onto 7Cups, Playing a
few games of chess online, etc. Nothing
hard but maybe looking at your cellphone's photo
gallery, or looking / reading through old text messages and maybe
sending
a
text with a creatively edited photo. I use 7Cups as a distraction often
(which is what
brought me here tonight). When our thoughts are blank, the anxiety
sneaks in, but when we are focused on something (Productive, Practical,
Positive and/or creative),
it diverts our attention and hence we no longer are paying attention to
anxiety. Learn to hate anxiety and start finding creative distractions
and look for ways like singing out-loud, or listening to the radio while
sketching a silly doodle, or doing a crossword puzzle. I write poems
about my anxiety also. I make little to do lists so I can keep my
thoughts directed at progress in my life. Keep it simple and give
yourself a lot of self care! Keep reaching out for help and guidance, and try many different Listeners on 7 Cups until you have a few you enjoy chatting with regularly. HAPPY NEW YEAR!~