Job interview nightmare

ai just got back from a job interview and i'm so drained. I cried a lot already. I feel humiliated. I'm so tired of having to prove them over and over that i want to work and failing. I'm tired of not being able to get the jobs i want beacuse they think i don't deserve it. Maybe i should just get a cleaning job. It's the kind of job i was treated the kindest and it's humane, as unlikely as it sounds. F F pretending to be who i'm not. F wanting to be kind with everyone and having that used to shame me. I'm done