Lost in memories

Hello. This week i am in Denmark. Since I got here i have thought about the past. It really felt like a movie. In thr movies when they play the past of a character and they kind of see the memories foggy. Exactly like that. When I was at child. And yesterday night about the past I hadn't thought in a while, from another perspective but hurtful still. They these smaller memories like situations keep appearing at random unedpected points and they really feel like a good punch that knock me off a bit. And today, when I havent slept much. We came in a shop, and expensive one. And my parents gave me a bag I asked for from my birthday fron this job years ago. I loved it then for some reason grew to unappreciated it. It annoyed me how I couldn't fort things in very well. Later on I met a girl and she was like I love this bag. And I was like have it. Now typing it out I did remember saying she could have it. When the memory first came I the she asked for it. Maybe she did. Idk. But she has it. And it was really bothering me, i felt so angry and impotent about that bag, because it's expensive. But I did give it to her she didnt ask for it which is what I thought initially, which was making me angry. But I wish I hadn't. Im no longer in contact with her.