Lost soul

Hi I'm new to this site, I feel like I've lost everything these past couple of years, in 2021 my little brother passed away from COVID that's when my panic attacks started I found him on the floor he was my best friend my buddy he had his whole life ahead of him, 2022 I fell into a deep depression and lost my children the state took them from my care because of my mental health issues which I fought for two years to get them back but that wasn't good enough, they now live with their dad which I do have communication with them but it's not the same I always had my babies and took the very best care I could for them, over my mental health courts found me unfortunately fit, 2024, my mom passing away set me off the deep end she was my best friend my only family that I had left on this earth, it's been 7 months since she's been gone, and I honestly feel like an orphan, I hardly have no friends or emotional support, I do my very best to keep busy but at the end of the day all I want is my family back.