Love....?

I’ve been struggling silently for years. My home never felt peaceful — my parents often fought over small things, especially my mother, and that made me feel unsafe even though she loves me. I developed deep trust issues from childhood, and things got worse in college when my closest friends and the girl I loved (Kunj) left me. She was everything to me, and I believed she’d help me heal and bring peace into my life, but I lost her due to my anger and anxiety, which came from untreated depression. Now she’s with someone else who manipulates her, and I feel like I’ve been replaced. I’ve been suffering from depression and anxiety for 5+ years. A doctor once told me that if I stay in this mental state, I could lose consciousness or even my memory. I feel detached, broken, and tired. I just want someone to talk to who won’t judge me. I’m here because I don’t want to give up, even if it hurts.