Reminder to let yourself have freedom

Do you ever feel like the world around you tries to control you? That’s how I feel. I feel the people around me try to control me into what they want me to be, and that my own opinions are wrong to have. I feel that every day. Sometimes you feel stuck. Sometimes it’s just frustrating thinking about it. Well, I want I reassure you your feelings are valid. You have a reason for the way you feel. You don’t need to change for anyone. If you feel like what you do is right then that’s all that matters. Your feelings don’t deserve to get pushed down just so that someone else could have their way. You may not be able to change that persons point of view, as much as you wish you could. However, that’s okay. It’s okay because you still have the freedom to react. You have the freedom to choose what you want to do next. For me, I’ve been going to therapy and I’ve been seeing my behavior analyst again. They help comfort me from these tough times. I just started therapy so I want to see how it is first, however I am open to an experience that I can truly be free in. A space where I have choice. A space where I’m free. I’m also thinking of just having my phone on do not disturb so that I don’t have to see anyone’s text or see a call from anyone. That way it doesn’t ruin my flow.

Let yourself have some freedom too. Whether that be having your phone on do not disturb, or other things like talking to a friend or getting your favorite snack. Right now, I don’t have the freedom I want. However, I still keep going forward always wanting to be the person I want to be in hopes that one day I’ll get the freedom I truly deserve. Even though I don’t have the freedom I want right now, I still look for ways to have small spaces of freedom that help keep me sane. I do believe I’ll get that freedom one day. I got a job I didn’t like and I thought I’d finally have freedom since I was making my own money. However I still felt chained because of things at home and plus the job felt daunting and something I didn’t like. I have quit that job, however I still want to go to college someday and work towards something that I’m truly passionate about. That way I can get a job that I find fun and one day be able to safely pay for a house and all the things I want