Searching for a Safe Place to Heal
My days been full of the kind of pressure that comes from where I live the weight of family expectations, religion, reputation, and social norms. I’m 23, queer, and still living with my family in a society where I can’t safely be myself. That alone has shaped every part of my life.
I’ve run out of energy trying to be the version of myself my family would love and respect. I want to be loved by my mom the way she loves my sisters without judgment, without suspicion, without that heavy look in her eyes. I want to be trusted. I want to be taken seriously. I’ve grown, I’ve changed, and I’m not a child or a mess… but I still feel like no matter what I do, I’m never enough. And it’s killing something soft inside me.
I don’t want to keep living in fear of being misunderstood. I want to figure out how to exist in my truth without losing everyone and everything. I’m not sure how to do that, but I know I need help. I’m tired. And I just need a space that’s safe where I don’t have to explain everything about my culture before I’m allowed to feel things.
Thank you for sharing @Bat02battle ✨
I just want to start by saying that: You are enough, you are beautiful and worth of love and attention, support and care✨
You must be more than exhausted! It is quite difficult to be “whom everyone wants you to be” and not be yourself. This requires a lot of work, and being tired ones not help.
This is your life @Bat02battle🌟 you decide who you are and how to live. I am sorry that your family is not understanding. Bring all the energy that you put into them, back to you. Focus on yourself on finding that unique path for You and your happiness
Sending you lots of good vibes✨