Seeking Guidance on Mental Health Struggles

Seeking Guidance on Mental Health Struggles

Hey everyone, I’m reaching out because I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed lately, and I think I might have ADHD. My thoughts are racing at a million miles an hour, and it feels like my mind is just too big for my head. I can hold information but feel like I need to write everything down all at once. I can’t sit still, and I often feel the urge to break or rip apart things around me. I forget half the things I think about and struggle to keep track of what I’m saying. I was diagnosed with anxiety after experiencing panic attacks, but I’ve been lying to my counselor about a lot of things during our sessions. For example, when she asked if I’ve stopped practicing basic hygiene, I said no, but I have. I dont take care of myself like a normal female should. I’ve told her my biggest supporter is my mom, but that’s not true. My mom often says I’m just seeking attention when I try to explain what’s wrong. I’ve expressed that I think I have ADHD, but she dismissed it as me wanting problems for attention. I feel like my mental and physical health are deteriorating, and I struggle to take care of myself due to depression. I need to be honest with her, but I’m scared to open up because I’ve already been lying. I just want to stop struggling and find a way to express what I’m going through so I can get the help I need. I’m feeling really lost right now and I don’t know how to move forward. What do I do because i don’t know how to get the help that I need because I want to stop struggling, I want to stop having suicidal thoughts, and I just want to be better. Any advice would be really appreciated.