Shame

Hey…

I apologise if this entry will be too heavy for anyone who is reading it. Please don’t read if that is the case. I don’t want to trigger anyone x

I’m feeling quite unsettled at the moment. Feeling shame. It’s to do with a fetish I have, and it hasn’t bothered me in the past and then I have slowly accepted but now the shame has come back. I even feel shame saying what it is… my fetish is pregnancy, growing bellies, inflating bellies… but it makes me feel so so ashamed. I hate myself for it. And now I think it’s starting to affect my intimate life. I feel shame doing intimate things. I feel like it’s wrong. I’ve started to feel wrong getting turned on or wanting to do things. It makes me really sad and makes me think that there’s something really wrong with me. I don’t know how to fix it either? Like will I be normal again? 🥺 Even the thought of a future partner knowing about this makes me feel incredibly ashamed of myself.

Thanks to anyone who is listening…