Tired
I don't really think I'll ever be enough of a person to be loved, I don't think anyone could genuinely love me and care for me. I don't think I deserve to be loved, I don't think I deserve to have anything good come my way. I don't think I deserve to live.
i constantly feel like I'm a waste of space, a waste of air, a person with no value or impact on the world. I don't think I'm worth anything more than a patch of dust.
I don't think I'll ever be beautiful or good looking enough to have someone be attracted to me, i don't think I'll ever be smart enough to make it to a good college and make stable money and build a peaceful life for myself, I genuinely do not believe I'll make it far in life or love. I do not think I'll become a successful person whom everyone admires, I do not think I am thought highly of, respected or admired by my peers, I do not think I am anything. I don't think I am kind enough or good enough of a person to find love or be deserving of it.
i don't think I am happy enough or interesting enough to make friends, I don't have many friends, truthfully I only have two. At school I sit alone most times, I have crushes that are almost always unrequited because I never end up making a move.
I do not think I'll achieve popularity, status or interest. I am dull, tedious and weak. I will never get through whatever life throws at me, I am not strong or brave enough to get over my past traumas and end up happy, I am not capable or deserving of happiness. I deserve to rot.
i don't see myself being loved, getting married, having batches of people who will care for me endlessly, I am just not made to be love, I am not made to be anything, I was brought into this world to listen, observe and suffer, I am not wanted wherever o go, I feel cursed, I feel a sense of and immaturity in me that I can't get rid of, I will never be enough. I will never be loved for who I really am, nobody would ever take me as I am. I am nothing but a burden to this world.
thats how I truly view myself and my life, I have nothing to wake up for. No one in the present to get out of bed for. I am nothing.
@Taintedrose112 I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but please know that your thoughts and feelings are not a true reflection of your worth. It's clear that you're going through an incredibly difficult and painful time, and I'm here to listen and provide support.
It's important to remember that you do have value and worth, and there are people who care about you, even if it may not feel like it right now. Many people go through tough times and self-doubt, and it's okay to seek help from a mental health professional, like a psychologist, to work through these feelings.
You don't have to go through this alone. There are people who want to help and support you, and there are resources available to assist you during challenging times. Please consider reaching out to a professional, a listener, or a trusted person in your life for the support you deserve. Your well-being is important, and there is hope for a better future.