Very tough phase of my life
I was so glad when I got selected to a company after my degree but it all went downhill as the job was very horrific and so were the people of the company, I hated it
As a result I left the place in 8 days and went back to my native the main goal to get the job was to be working at the same time as my girlfriend as she also got into a company and to not be treated like a kid anymore at home where I get to say nothing and choose nothing
But after this move of coming back it's been horrific recently my dad said some words which you wouldn't want to listen from your father and also said I came back running from the job
My dad acts like nothing happened and tells me not to stress but he's the one who's making it worse
And seeing my girl work when I'm at home doing nothing was my worst fear and it's actually happened now and I'm devastated the smallest of things make me tense and I find it so hard to breathe and my heartbeat rises so much,My anxiety issues are very bad at the moment
The next plan is to do higher studies but this comparison I have between me and my girl kills me I keep thinking why I can't be with her right now working and earning
Now I have to study another two years and be under my dad again, I try to have good relationship with my dad but what he said and made me feel two days back has me on the edge
I just want to feel normal and happy, I haven't been able to sleep or eat properly, I rant about how I feel daily to my girl after her shift she tries her best to make me feel better but I don't want to be a burden to her I also want to support and help her out
I just want to be happy
@Thinker03
Happy is inward and with yourself ............ no job/ company/ dad or girl does that for you.
I really hope you find what you are looking for but why did you not try, or are you considering other companies or jobs ? What did you expect and was that realistic. work is not all about being fulfilled and happy with what you are doing... not all jobs will be your passion etc.
I am not sure what your experience in working is but there are companies that are horrible and some that are good...Often we can not see that until IN the middle of it, more education will not change that.
So if 2 years down the road after more school you find yourself in a place you hate and want to leave in a week what then?
It was my first job experience and as soon as I got that I just stopped looking for better one's and in the end that led me to one of the worst companies
I gave up cause I couldn't take it anymore I had to work 11hr shifts at night which drained me, it destroyed me mentally and physically
The goal is to study and not make the same mistakes as before and look for the right one's
The thing is iv been always looking for happiness in other people because I could never really find it myself
And about the further studies and job its to be someone for my girl and my parents
I don't want to be a no good boyfriend with a bad job and a son with no good income to provide the family
I had huge dreams of getting into MMA, never could do it but I was thinking while I'd start studying I'd get into an mma gym but the dream to be a pro
I don't think that's happening
@Thinker03
It is all admirable to want to be successful in all or anything you do ... but when you are doing it for someone else it wears out quickly any tolerance to put up with less then good jobs and sometimes even good jobs have those moments...
DO things for YOU not others ...i took jobs Others thought were great....... i hated it yet pretended until i lost me in the process ... now i do things for me.
you can find more strength and happy in you then you realize. it sometimes takes others to show you the route.. i too used to look outside was not happy until someone showed me i was capable to find it in myself... think that path is different for many and i hope you find your way to really appreciate you for you not because outside things...
Yes!!! Thank you so much for your kind words I wish you all the best in everything 🙏💗
