What the helly is going on?

This holiday break was great too see my family and have a FEW days of break but all week I was trying to do my homework which I FORGOT AT SCHOOL so i had to walk in the snow to get my FINALS paper to complete my assignments. This blew a grenade in my pond bc I could not concentrate. All I wished was to spend time with fam and friends but I was dreading my assignments. While i headed back to work I was late and my boos was there and didn’t seem happy then told me that i need to watch training videos to learn efling idk how to do that💔 my boss sometimes challenges my ability while I am still learning the job. Work has drained all my motivation because I’m asked to do more while I don’t get anything in return. I don’t expect much but communication and kindness that seems like I’m asking for too much. School has also challenged me but it’s given me a chance to grow and have positive critiques that has befitted me more and I want to put all my energy into it but I am tried and insecure of failure. Falling for that feeling I CANT do this and it’s inevitable of a bad outcome has made it hard to see the bright side. I feel like quitting on life and lay in bed all day but I feel like I’m burning from my regrets. As a student I am supposed to invent in my mind but how can I when I can’t find motivation or the ability to do anything. My brain is frozen from the cold wind and I don’t want to do anything but be a rock and let the world pass by. I just want a nap and no worried for tomorrow.