When it's going to end?
I feel really tense and anxious again... The hot weather is now gone but i still feel tense because i talk to myself a lot and i don't know what to do... Like... The temse is still there but i don't know why? Maybe it's because i was reading a book and then i got distracted by thought and then i was focused on that one thought and i got scared that the temse is coming back and then i got anxiety and then i started talking to myself because i felt tense and i wasn't able to focus on book because if that thought amd then i got scared and anxious and then i started to talk to myself again, and then i go on YouTube and watch bunch of videos... I don't know what to do... Will it end? I don't understand... I don't want to live like this... And the thoughts are passing by really fast and i can't focus on the present moment and I don't know why... I don't know why I'm so focused on that thoughts that are just passing by... I'm in panic, I don't know what to do... I feel really tense... What is going on...
I'm really scared... I don't know what to do...
I don't want to do anything... I don't want to talk to anybody, i don't want to make any decisions right now, i just don't want to do anything...
Update: I found out the reason why I feel like it. It's not because it's hot outside, it's because I'm overheated. Like, I drink a lot of tea and my room does not get any fresh air and when the weather cool down a little bit my room didn't get any fresh air and when the weather got warm again or hot but the air is cooled down even when it's hot outside I got overheated. Like, I was overheated when it was really hot outside and when it cooled down I was cooling down too but not properly because I was drinking hot tea, my room didn't get any fresh air when the weather cooled down and since then I'm overheated and when I wake up, the sun is shining on my body which I'm getting really hot and then I get overheated. So... I just need to cool down now because the weather outside is ok, it's not hot but not cold or something like that, just a little bit warm but the air is cool a little bit. So, the weather is pretty awesome and it's ok I guess, but still, I just need to cool down and get my room a fresh air.