chronic anxiety

I am devastated right now. Tears are just rolling down my face. I try to think about what is wrong, what is wrong with me. I think about all the problems, but then I feel like there is nothing. I feel like I am just overreacting, overthinking, overfeeling. Maybe everything is right and I am wrong. and i am just overreacting to everything. I am just overfeeling and it is not that hurtful or painful or bad. Nothing is bad. I am bad. I am wrong. I am doing everything wrong to everyone. maybe there is nothing wrong in my life. I am the one who is wrong. I think that. And then I feel like, what is wrong with me? Why am I so hurt? Why am I so devastated? Why am I so quiet, so irritable now? Why there is so much anger in me? Why there is so much pain in me? Why am I not okay? Why do I get anxiety attacks? Why am I so anxious all the time? Why am I so scared? I don't know why. Maybe I am just overreacting. Maybe I am a *** myself. Maybe it is my fault. It is all my fault. Nothing is anyone's fault. I don't know what I am so scared of. I don't know why I am crying. I don't know what I am feeling. I don't know why I am feeling that. idk why iam so helpless.

I know what are the problems. I know why im this way and so hurt. But when I think about them, they feel like they are not really the problem. I am the problem. and then i think Why am I overfeeling? Even though I know how hurt I am because of those things, and how scared I am, and how devastated I am because of those problems. But when I think about them, they don't feel that big. They feel like nothing. And I feel like I am the problem.