My mother is a narcissist
My mother is a narcissist. Everything is all about her all day long. EVerything needs to be about her. She is a truly amazing person and I love her to pieces. I would do anything for my mother. I do everything I can and it's never enough.
I cry when she's sad or mad or manic because nothing I say or do makes any difference. I keep hoping that if I fix everything going wrong in her life that she'll magically morph into the mother I always wanted her to be. I always wanted the mom who would be the super hero of the family. I know this isn't realistic because my mother has never been that person. My mother has always bee the fun loving, super shopping, cool friend mom. She's a great cook and looks amazing when she goes to work.
She doesn't believe she is as amazing as I think she is. I love her and wish I could be as lucky as her. I wish I was as talented and quirky and had a man like my dad. I wish to be as confident as her.
My mother is never happy with anything. Our love is never enough for her. She wishes she was like her idols. She wishes she was jetsetting around the world and going to parties and being the center of the room. She wishes the world loved her so much and this is why we are not enough. We are not the world. We're just her kids and her husband. We aren't special. We aren't the level of affirmation she si seeking. I can't get her to love us the way I need her to.
I am the mother of this house. I am the one who is glueing our family back together. I am the one who is managing the happiness of everyone else. I am the one who is mothering my mother. My mother is acting like all the teenagers I despised in high school. I'm angry because when I come to her with simple things like how I should handle boyfriend trouble or period trouble, she is too busy complaining about her hair or figuring out instagram. SHE HAS AN INSTAGRAM! I DON'T HAVE ONE BECAUSE I'M NOT THIS SELF INVOLVED!
I'm angry because she is amazing and she just wants more. I'm angry because I know that one day she'll leave us and sping off into some never ending party.
That's challenging to have such a 'wild' and overpowering personality in the household. I'm sorry that your mother is turning out to be a chore. I hope that she calms down and doesn't indeed 'go off into the wild blue yonder'. I have difficult people in my family, and I understand. I stopped going to family events years ago, and half of my family is estranged to the other half. Despite the appearance in pop culture, I don't know anyone who has a 'great' family.
