Why did this happen to me?
I loved someone with all my heart. For her, I risked my relationship with my family and friends. Stood by her during her dark phase. But she got attracted to someone else while keeping me in dark, I came to know of it and didnt confront her hoping to fix things. Tried to work hard to earn for her, but it wasn't enough. Then I went on a project where I simply talked with a girl, but she blamed me of cheating. I didn't cheat on her. She snatched my family and friends from me. I am suicidal and without anyone left. I gave everything I had to her and today I am left with nothing except a desire to just die.
Any time you have a sense of anxiety pause, take deep breaths, count to 10 and tell yourself you'll be ok.
Write your feelings down in a notebook. Almost like a diary. Wherever you experience that anxiety write in your book, don't even think. Even if it doesn't make sense.
Reflect on your notebook on days you feel more level headed.
Look in the mirror. Literally everyday. Look yourself in the eyes. Tell that person you see "you got this." Flex if you have to.
Excersise
One step at a time.
Be resilient for yourself. Your family/friend relationships can be fixed . It's just going to take time.
Do things you used to like.
Understand, you were a scapegoat to someone who was immature.
Create new music playlists that motivate you to grow. Listen religiously. Convince yourself you're ok because today your mind has convinced you that you're not. Thoughts are powerful
This is a journey. A marathon. And I'm rooting for you
I try to remain positive. I did everything for her. I did commit some mistakes out of anxiety and panic attacks. She clings to them to put tge blame on me. Though I never cheated on her.
@BeingTenzing
so you loved her.... but she was ok in destroying your relationship with family and friends. She used you wanting you to jump through hoops for her .... but what did you really get in return ... found someone else behind your back then accuses you of the thing she might have done...
You are too good for her she sounds narcissistic and you should be happy you got out of the relationship .. perhaps in time your family and those can see past your turning your back as we all do stupid things when we think we are in love.
I cannot believe how people can change. Is money so important that it is okay to sleep around with married men for money?
Just because I talked with someone, just talked, I was accused of cheating but what was she doing? I did all I could to provide for her. She was ok for 2 years and just as she shifted to another city, which she did with my financial helo, she started cheating on me.