guess who's back to haunt me?

i'm in a long distance relationship struggling with separation anxiety. as you can imagine, it's very complicated

we had an argument yesterday, and unlike our usual disagreements this one was really bad. he did something tht triggered my anxiety and it made me snap

i was sweating, crying, i couldn't breathe, i felt lightheaded. i tried stepping out of my room to clear my thoughts but i felt so dizzy i nearly blacked out. the panic attacks are back :(

for a while journaling has helped my anxiety, but not tht night. i felt tunnel visioned and couldn't take my mind of it

it hurts more when he's not taking this as seriously as i wanted him to. i feel so alone and misunderstood