Agoraphobia
I was diagnosed with Agoraphobia in college, of course, I didn't complete college because I dropped out the first semester. It seems it's hard to do well when you rarely attend. Since then I've been locked up in my room, only leaving to go to the bathroom and get food from the kitchen. I live with my best friend and her family, and agoraphobia coupled with my severe social anxiety, I get very anxious and awkward around her family. I was so afraid to deal with even the idea of a small conversation with them that I never left my room. They were great people; very nice, bought me stuff, not at all scary, I just couldn't do it.
The only time I left the house was to go to work, but then my mother took away my car, thus causing a chain reaction involving me losing my job and along with it my will to live. At one point I wrote a suicide note, but didn't follow through with the act itself. My mum and I aren't on good terms, and everything felt hopeless. My room was beginning to feel like a prison, one that I could leave at any time but was afraid to. I finally got a doctor and now I'm on a new medication, Venlafaxine. It's been kicking in, and I made goals for myself: leave my room 2 hours a day, and leave the house 2 hours a week. Wish me luck, I need it.
Hey ive had this for a very long time and im the same on tablets too so good luck anytime you want to talk send me a message :) xx
@loopylou hey, how do you feel about venlafaxine? I have been on them for years and they don't seem to do anything for me anymore
@Kerryahern02 hey they didnt do anything for me except make me paranoid ive been on quiet a few different ones untill i was calm on mine i take amytryptaline for night time duloxetine propranalol but if your tablets arnt doing anything id go back to the doctors for a review chick no point taking something that doesn work xx
@loopylou
well I've just got back from the docs, they gave me a couple of days worth of diazepam because I had a really bad panic attack whilst on holiday and had to fly back home, I have to go back in a few weeks to discuss changing my meds! I'm hoping they take me off venlafaxine I hate it, the withdrawal effects are horrible xx
@Kerryahern02 aww huni i hope you are ok i absolutly hate flying as i know i cant escape anywhere if i panic so if i need to fly i knock myself out with sleepers.. just demand you be took off them not if they think so or not you know they arnt doing you any good so dont stay on them ... withdrawls ar horribile i was shaking feeling sick going dizzy for a good week just plenty of water to help flush out your system quicker and i suggest not to go aywhere packed full of people alone xx
I can absolutely relate to this. I'm getting better though, and I'm sure you will too :)