Dreams
I'm scared of plenty of things like spiders, clowns, flying, death, being alone, getting kidnapped, and the dark. But one of my worst fears is the ocean.
About a year or two ago I started having nightmares. It was always a different surrounding, and a different scenario, but it had the same outcome. I would be at a beach. I would be playing in the sand, or eating, or walking in the water. Then a tsunami would hit.
In my first dream I was playing in the sand with two other little girls. Then someone screamed "TSUNAMI!" Everyone around me ran. I tried to run but it was like my feet were glued to the ground. I looked up and saw a humongous tidal wave. It was about to crash, but I woke up. In another one, me, my mom, and my brother escaped. But we couldn't find my dad. And one of the worst ones I had was where there was a mountain directly behind the beach so we had nowhere to run.
These dreams have effected my reality. Now I am deathly afraid of the ocean. But we take a trip to the beach each year. These dreams had effected me so much that I actually asked my parents if I could just stay at the house while they went to the beach. My mom asked me to research tsunamis first, saying that sometimes knowing more about your fear can make it go away. I looked up facts about them, but it made me feel worse. I read about the height, how fast they could travel, etc. I knew that tsunamis were rare but they still freaked me out. And one of the worst things I read was that a tsunami was a series of tidal waves, each bigger and worst than the former. I had thought it was just one tidal wave.
I told my mom about how it was worse and I didn't have to go to the beach, I could just stay at the beach house while they went. For most of the trip, I was fine. But if I were near the ocean, I would get nervous and shaky. I would always check to make sure there wasn't some tidal wave about to hit.
I think I stopped having dreams.... Usually when I dream it's supposed to mean something... Or be a sign. But the other night I had a dream that I called the cops on my dad.... I was wearing a blue shirt that I have.... I don't know if it's supposed to happen.... Maybe...
I have the same kind of dreams over and over. They are usually hospital dreams or abandonment dreams. Or both.
Dreams can be really interesting. I know two people who are close to me that have dreams which inevitably come true. Example, my cousin had a dream I was getting yelled at in the kitchen by my mother for not wanting to cook (Indian family). Well, it happened, I was wearing the same outfit as was my mother and it was in the exact same spot. Weird, huh?
At the same time, sometimes we just dream about what we fear the most. Last night I had a dream that my S/O was badly injured and was taken to the hospital, but I searched everywhere and couldn't find where the hospital was. It was like I lost the most important person in my life (that frightens me after losing my grandmother).
Dreams don't necessarily mean things will happen. It's usually just on a subconscious level. The rare times they do, it's probably something that happens on ocassion. For example, going to the movies every other week and seeing the same person there. You have a dream about this person, never noticed them before, but you see them the next time you go to the movies.
Very interesting though!
I often dream flashbacks. The weirdest dream I had recently was someone bringing a wolf pup to me and telling me its my son. He could talk and shift back and forth between human and wolf. It was very weird
I often have dreams relating to whatever it is I am worrying about and in those dreams I end up being confronted with my fears, no matter how big or small they are. It's always a bit upsetting when in my dreams I manage to overcome my worries and then I wake up and they all come rushing back.
