Emetophobia

I’ve been dealing with emetophobia since the 4th grade, I’m not gonna go into detail of what happened but to put it in simple words it was food poisoning and the *act* was non. stop. Ever since then I’ve been terrified of getting sick ever since, and I haven’t done it since, since June of last year my phobia got worse, and last October it got so bad I couldn’t eat for a few days because I was scared my body would somehow reject food, even though I was hungry but didn’t have an appetite, right now I’m getting over a cold and since my appetite has been weird since getting sick I’ve been eating only toast, apples, and chicken noodle soup, but now that I’m starting to feel better I wanna try to eat something else, but I’m terrified that my body will reject it, and I don’t want to regress to October where every bite of food gave me a panic attack. I feel hopeless that I’ll ever overcome this phobia, I’m terrified of ERP and I was wondering if anyone here has done it? Any success stories? I’ve heard about the books The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook and the Emetophobia Manual and I’m curious about them, could they be an alternative to ERP? I just need some encouragement, I’m driving my partner insane everyday because of my phobia and I feel like a burden… I can’t take it anymore, I don’t want to live like this forever…