Herpetophobia

I've had herpetophobia which is the fear of lizards since my childhood or teen days. I've tried controlling my mind a lot. I've read so many articles about it as well but it doesn't work for me. In fact, my fear has only grown recently.

I feel so embarrassed about being afraid of lizards that I often tell people that I have a hatred towards them and it's not fear. I can't even look at some specific pictures with the images of house lizards or geckos. It's so bad that if I'm sleeping in a room with a lizard or if I'm suspicious that a lizard might enter that room, I'm not even able to sleep the whole night.