Anxiety/OCD/Depression, please help
I'm not even sure where to begin on this one, wasn't even sure about the title as there were words that I even attempting to type them were bothering me because they were just so negative. I've been dealing with all of this for years now, and now it's hitting me with something worse than I've ever felt before. I'm sure what I'm going through stems from depression (I am someone dispalced by the pandemic, it's clearly now taken it's toll on me mentally), but it's the anxiety and OCD that's just so brutal right now, I'm worried about the smallest thing possibly doing harm to me and I let it eat away at me. I've been trying so hard to just sit with it and let it be, to not fight it, and to have acceptance, but I just don't think it's working. Sleep now seems to come at a premium. And the tinest thing seems to just set me on a further downward spiral, just as an example I got into an argument with a friend about all of this late last night (he's big on medicating and I'm not based on prior bad experiences) we do eventually kinda mend it but for me mentally the damage was done. I don't know what else to do anymore. What kills me the most was that I was just fine, dare I even say better than I had been, about a week and a half ago, now I'm stuck in this horrible spot.
@I512
Hello,
I'm sorry to hear you're going through a really challenging time in your life and even more so due to the pandemic. It sounds like you really value your relationship with your friend and maybe feeling saddened that your decision to choose an alternative to meds was ignored.
@I512
It sounds like you're going through a really tough spot in terms of anxiety/intrusive thoughts about health, along with general depression (seemingly from a feeling of placelessness and isolation), which so many are struggling with in these times. You're not alone, and the feelings you're suffering through now are a completely expected result of what you're enduring right now in your life. I wouldn't expect someone like you to feel any other way, but that said, it has to be a seemingly insurmountable challenge to conquer in your eyes, and it's something I can hardly imagine. If you'd ever like to have a chat, feel free to reach out :) (I specialize as well in chatting about OCD).
@I512
Hey there! So first off, I'm sorry to hear that you're in such a bad spot right now. I can relate to a lot of what you said in your post, as I personally struggle with bad bouts of anxiety and depression myself. That being said, I do think things will eventually turn around for the better. It seems to me as if these particularly bad periods of anxiety and depression come in waves throughout different phases of our lives. Let yourself experience whatever you're feeling now, without judgment, while keeping in mind that it's one of life's many seasons. Wishing you the best!
@I512 there for you