Anxiety is ruining my life

Hello!

I am having hard time managing my emotions.

I don’t know what is happening, my life’s going good, my studies, my job, my relationship. But mind is so fudged up, that is ruining everything.

I’m kind of socially awkward, but I’m trying to get out my bubble. But this mind. It’s empty, but full of chaos. I can’t understand, I can’t explain to anyone about what I’m feeling, what I am thinking, and why am I overthinking every single thing.

Every person in my life is supportive. There are some people, who don’t like me, so I try not to go near them. I try, but people find reasons to talk about me. I shouldn’t be caring about them, but I do.

I have just lost all the self-love, self-confidence. Whatever I do, I feel like why am I ruining this.

see, I don’t even know what I am feeling now. My mind is all over the place, the silent chaos has made my mind shattered in thousand pieces, and I can’t pin point what I’m feeling.

It feels so sad to see when this ruining my day, relationship and everything.

I have so many insecurities about myself, the way I look, the way I behave.

People don’t understand me, when I say I can’t explain what I am feeling. I don’t know where to start to stop this. Because I can’t deal with this anymore.

I don’t know what to talk else, what to share. Just want to have a peace in there. For once.