Anxiety ruining my mind
I started a new job 2 months ago and I love it. It’s a lot but I’m struggling with it. I’ve always masked myself at work to fit in. It’s worked a bit with a few people but I would never fully be accepted and I was fine with that. When I started my new job, I told myself I would stop masking and just be myself. Well, that backfired.
I’m an enthusiastic worker but I tend to rush ahead of myself. It’s something I am working on. However, due to tablets I’ve been on for a while, my memory is shocking. I’m not retaining as much as I would and I’m not getting any further along than I thought I would be. However, this is something I am also working on.
There is this one worker. I don’t know what I have done but they make me feel like poo. They took their eyes or mutter under their breath whenever I have something to contribute. It’s really starting to get to me.
I have trauma and this is all very triggering. I don’t want to be the person who cries all the time at work or have myself used against me anymore. I don’t sleep, I’m constantly exhausted
@intuitiveBalsam6197 Hi there, I am so sorry to hear that. First of all, I am so glad to hear that you are being yourself in this new work environment because that in itself is already something very difficult for many because of society. However, not everyone will like you because that is just the way people work, but for you, I assume that you just so happen to meet a hater sooner than you have expected. I suggest trying to talk with them and ask if they are offended by anything unintentional or have anything against you because what they are doing right now is very disrespectful. If they are still immature like this, that is their problem. Understand that not everyone will like you in this world, but also keep in mind that there are many more that do, and it would be less stressful for you if you can try to let the haters go. Best of luck :>