Burnt out

i dont usually go on these but im literally burnt out, i have so much on my plate, i juggle a job, doing everything around the house, taking care of the animals and my 1 year old and do online school. My boyfriend is emotionally abusive i cant go anywhere or talk to anyone. sometimes ill feel like im dreaming lol i struggle to eat and feel tired sll the time i sleep 4 hrs a night and im so underweight its ridiculous . i struggle with smoking poppers (google) and its hard to quit. it asked how i feel and i feel like i dont want to be me:) just someone else with a easier life i dont like myself.