Constantly anxious and overwhelmed.
My baby brother passed away recently. He's not a baby, but he is younger than me. Since his passing was so sudden, I was overwhelmed with thoughts and memories of him. The unfortunate event that I have to live with for the rest of my life is that I haven't seen him in over 2.5 years because I live abroad... I flew home for the first time in 2 years to attend his funeral. Seeing him and having to lay him to rest as my first and final goodbye was so hard. I was jetlagged, grieving and heartbroken. My ex and I broke up only a week right before and I was already having a hard time getting over him. This year has been terrible so far. Since I flew back home, I have constantly been crying and filled with anxiety. I would feel overwhelmed at any given moment and I would constantly wake up from my sleep or naps with a racing heart and anxious feelings. I hate it so much. Even if I am out with friends or playing with my dog, I randomly get anxious or overwhelmed. How do people deal with being overwhelmed? I tried breathing techniques and it doesn't help at all. I tried to distract myself, but that just made me feel more overwhelmed to get things done...
@TryingToBurnLikeAStar It sounds like you are dealing with a huge amount of grief all at once. I would be surprised if you weren't feeling anxious and overwhelmed. One piece of advice I received for dealing with grief was to tell your story until you are sick of hearing yourself tell it. If you don't have people nearby you can talk to, just come here and chat with a Listener. You could tell your story to a different one every day and eventually it will start helping you process the grief. It is perfectly normal to be struggling with all you have been through so be kind to yourself.